In training

Want more-

Need less.

What do I surround myself with-

What do I feed

What do I listen to...

Silence stills the well.

Calm urges the spark.

Reset space by night,

to start a new

Routine,

prep my coffee,

foot steps follow,

upstairs, begin.

Resistance.

I sit,

I open.

I type,

I pour.

What do I want to create today,

Healing-

The grand master of my own plan.

Youth jumping off,

smelling died dried roses,

Disturbance,

What am I searching for,

Consistency,

Movement,

Creation.

How do I progress,

Make progress,

What is tying me down?

I have come here to fulfill a purpose,

I am disillusioned to think I am special

- as she said I was to be,

Only outside looking eyes,

Now without,

I've disappeared.

Left to shake the lasting detergent,

No longer cleaning agents,

sorted,

Topical band-aid of

At home remedies,

Cleanse flush piss repeat,

Only so much

do, say, help, give-

to another,

without wanting for their own.

Nomad,

I drift.

Peace in darkness.

I sit alone.